What am i doing?

i am so incapable of keeping anyone happy... things change so damn fast and i have become so very slow. Hurt her who i love the most... she cried over lunch today! i just sat and gazed... couldn't say or do anything because i was at fault and there was no denying it. hope this pricks me again and again in the coming days so i am conscious of what i am doing and take care of her happiness. don't know how to change the other factors that hurt her but i can change myself i am sure...

My head.......

head is feeling heavy. the happiness is wearing off and i have no way what so ever to get it back intact. alone in this nite with not a soul for company, i am feeling cold. my nose pricks and soon there is a pain around my eyes as the eyes threaten to burst.
i need arms that can hold me now, shoulders that can comfort me and on which i can rest my head and rest for a while. i am tired. where shall i go?
i am lost i think! what am i doing? where am i? my headache its killing me! i think my eyesight is failing me. just came back from a walk, the roads seem empty and the city seems dead.
should go back home now... its late!
should get back...