Dear "old" friend,
remember the days when i used to say that i want to run away to some place far and not come back to this life of mine. start a new life with a different me. well though it never happened and i tried my best to develop a new me but still i feel incomplete. It is as if the going away thing, walking away to the feeling called freedom has become my only obsession. don't know how it will feel when i actually do it but i want to do it soon.
yes i know i will be blamed for running away but then it will be a happiness of a kind that i surely want to experience then may be i can truly be what i wanted to be. well the strive to break free has begun and i hope that on this page soon enough there will be the final news of "fly away"... what a song it was! so long my friend...
Friday, March 28, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
Kiddo's Birthday Party!
Went out with my Kiddo and her friends to a Malaysian resturant called Awana for Kiddo's birthday party. it was not my first time there but felt good to be there with them!Had a great time! Then the drive in the rain... My Kiddo looked so beautiful.
Hope she is always happy and smiling! Probably her last birthday with me but i wish her happiness for a life time.
Its still rainin! Probably its just my heart :)
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Letter to a friend...
She was a part of our life which we loved and captured in the deep and loving corner of our heart. Don’t feel sad that the time doesn’t exist now. Raj we have gone through many cycles of meeting people and losing out on them together. Only a few stayed and those who did had more or less changed beyond recognition. I am sure there will be many people you would at this time have wished that you never met or some people who you wish had met you much before!
Our She is a suspension in time. Don’t disturb those moments with the images from today. Everybody changes Raj. She is growing up and she has grown away from our eyes. We no longer know who she meets or dwells with each day of her life. We were not there when she met new people, experienced new things and bud into the lady she is.
Another year or two and she would have no time for people who so rarely show up in her life unless it brings her immense joy and happiness in her life to be with them. We came close to her because she carved to have a loving brother and we carved for that baby love. Yes she loved us a lot but now that love has been diluted with years of dust and distance.
The time for innocence is not over yet nor is the pain over lost innocence. Soon enough you will have your own child and then there will be nothing to match the innocence on her face and in that phase of your life you would have forgotten all about Her face and her kiddoish being which felt so safe and comfortable in her brother's arms.
Ya it hurts now to think about the times that we have gone through, the clarity in her eyes, the smile on her face, the child... no it can never be forgotten and to forget it would be a crime we commit against ourselves. You always have blamed/kidded/scolded/admired in me the fact I never get very close to people. See why! Not that I am scared of their drifting away but I am scared of the memories that haunt me through my life. And more so in times of loneliness and in times of happiness when I remember some aspect of a dear one which I could have used at that moment of my life.
We will see more of the innocence we have always carved for Raj. There is more to come, more to feel and more to lose. It's just the start of the beginning of life.
Rony.
Our She is a suspension in time. Don’t disturb those moments with the images from today. Everybody changes Raj. She is growing up and she has grown away from our eyes. We no longer know who she meets or dwells with each day of her life. We were not there when she met new people, experienced new things and bud into the lady she is.
Another year or two and she would have no time for people who so rarely show up in her life unless it brings her immense joy and happiness in her life to be with them. We came close to her because she carved to have a loving brother and we carved for that baby love. Yes she loved us a lot but now that love has been diluted with years of dust and distance.
The time for innocence is not over yet nor is the pain over lost innocence. Soon enough you will have your own child and then there will be nothing to match the innocence on her face and in that phase of your life you would have forgotten all about Her face and her kiddoish being which felt so safe and comfortable in her brother's arms.
Ya it hurts now to think about the times that we have gone through, the clarity in her eyes, the smile on her face, the child... no it can never be forgotten and to forget it would be a crime we commit against ourselves. You always have blamed/kidded/scolded/admired in me the fact I never get very close to people. See why! Not that I am scared of their drifting away but I am scared of the memories that haunt me through my life. And more so in times of loneliness and in times of happiness when I remember some aspect of a dear one which I could have used at that moment of my life.
We will see more of the innocence we have always carved for Raj. There is more to come, more to feel and more to lose. It's just the start of the beginning of life.
Rony.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
How i got alone though i was not!
Went out with two dear friends of mine and thought that i had already forgotten anything that might be bothering me. But as the day drew to a close and the realization struck me that ya this was actually there, happening at that moment and it was drawing to a close rather fast. i didn't want it to end. i didn't want to.
There are only a few place where i feel at home. Met Deep after twice in a months time that too after 6 years but not for a moment felt like we have been away so long. And Farah, a new friend after so long ! Really refreshing. You are so sweet girl, loved your company... Happy!!! Feel like myself with you guyz :)
Had started to feel alone as i dropped my buddiez home and started back for my own nest. But life had a small gift wrapped in shiny cover waiting for me. I saw my baby. i didn't think i would get to see her twice in less than a day :)
A great day for me so had to put it down here. Hope i have more of them in the days to come. Very tired... drove close to 100kms... have to sleep!
Adventure or mis-adventure! good or bad! I dont know and i dont care... i want more of it.... i want more of LIFE!
There are only a few place where i feel at home. Met Deep after twice in a months time that too after 6 years but not for a moment felt like we have been away so long. And Farah, a new friend after so long ! Really refreshing. You are so sweet girl, loved your company... Happy!!! Feel like myself with you guyz :)
Had started to feel alone as i dropped my buddiez home and started back for my own nest. But life had a small gift wrapped in shiny cover waiting for me. I saw my baby. i didn't think i would get to see her twice in less than a day :)
A great day for me so had to put it down here. Hope i have more of them in the days to come. Very tired... drove close to 100kms... have to sleep!
Adventure or mis-adventure! good or bad! I dont know and i dont care... i want more of it.... i want more of LIFE!
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