There is a turmoil in my head from the time i saw those happy couples in the picnic yesterday and dad's question on our way back has been like a persistent throbbing headache. The question was plain simple and totally suggestive of what he had on his mind. He had asked maa, "Didn't you find anyone to get Rony married to?"
As simple as the question was and the ease with which my mind swept it aside, i was convinced that this was the end of it until later, when it came around to haunt me. Guess i was too tired to think after a day out in the field and so my mind just gave in to the temptation of letting go.
When my mind started turning up blank walls and thoughts later today, i decided to speak to Kanna. The only lady i could turn to without inhibition for her advice. What she told me, i knew, but it shook me out bluntly pointing at something i was ignoring. It started with me stating my trouble in these simple words, "i guess i have to get married soon." then the conversation ensued with she asking me why. i told her that maa and baba wanted me to. Then she asked me what kind of a girl i wanted, i said your kind without a second thought. What she said next was the Fat boy over Nagasaki.
She said,
"Bro do you know what you are asking for? Do you know if you are ready? Does maa know what she is getting herself into? You know the girl who comes into our house can’t adjust? (I am not shocked but surely surprised!) Not that maa is bad but the girl would want her privacy, the freedom to do what she wants, come home from work relax, stretch out in the front room over the couch, announce that she doesn’t want to cook today, wear a short and run around, jump around you, do what she wants-when she wants! Bro such a girl, i mean my kind of a girl can’t live like this Bro. Remember what our problem was with the last alliance that we got for me was,(of course i do Kiddie) the mother. Bro all girls now want a space, however liberal your in-laws might be there will be restrictions and if you are looking for someone like me who has been away from home then you can’t get married while you are with maa and baba. then what is the use of getting married now Bro? What if she asks you to leave maa-baba, will they be able to take it? What if you have to shift to allow her to work at the place she wants?"
To this torrent of questions i had no answer and i still don’t. Wish i had more people who i could really ask. She is the only person i can ask now and i guess she is all i need. Hmmm... But one thing is for sure, at least i could get a picture of what she wants. Hope she gets what she deserves and she does deserve all that she told me. I will try i best to see to it that we get what you want baby.
P.S.: Her quoted conversation occurred over 3 hours. These are just the lines that stuck to my mind even after having a long day at office.
