It’s quite surprising to think that the first week of the New Year has just passed us by. Its maa's birthday and the day went by sweet and simply. Well nothing special about it, just office, a day of inactivity, a cake and the birthday song :) maa looked happy and that was purpose accomplished.
For me every day is passing by in the same fashion. No different from the day before that. It’s always trying to please someone. Well if that is the way of life then shouldn't i be treated the same at some point of time. Well my only resolution in the New Year was not to crib but then you are my sole companion so I couldn’t keep it from you.
Day-in and day-out i am treated the same. What is the use of the calendar changing a page or the whole calendar being replaced with a new one? Nothing makes a difference. one guy screws my life, my mother is lost in between reality and a hope of a miracle, dad is well non-existent, the lady i love only promises love when she is shown some else it is only my presence in her life that she wants (no reason or purpose - just be there!) and the girl i call my sis but then well she is busy fighting her own war.
Yes seven days ago i had promised myself i would not crib, seven days ago - that feels like a long time. My freshly smile plastered smile is beginning to crack. Losing the hope that i started out the annual calendar change with. Should i crib? Should i go silent? Should i just continue uncomplaining? Should i revolt? Should i just plot till i can escape?
WHAT DO YOU THINK?
Going for a movie with maa and dad in the evening tomorrow. Hope they smile!
Something I heard: ...weird almost feels like home...
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