She was a part of our life which we loved and captured in the deep and loving corner of our heart. Don’t feel sad that the time doesn’t exist now. Raj we have gone through many cycles of meeting people and losing out on them together. Only a few stayed and those who did had more or less changed beyond recognition. I am sure there will be many people you would at this time have wished that you never met or some people who you wish had met you much before!
Our She is a suspension in time. Don’t disturb those moments with the images from today. Everybody changes Raj. She is growing up and she has grown away from our eyes. We no longer know who she meets or dwells with each day of her life. We were not there when she met new people, experienced new things and bud into the lady she is.
Another year or two and she would have no time for people who so rarely show up in her life unless it brings her immense joy and happiness in her life to be with them. We came close to her because she carved to have a loving brother and we carved for that baby love. Yes she loved us a lot but now that love has been diluted with years of dust and distance.
The time for innocence is not over yet nor is the pain over lost innocence. Soon enough you will have your own child and then there will be nothing to match the innocence on her face and in that phase of your life you would have forgotten all about Her face and her kiddoish being which felt so safe and comfortable in her brother's arms.
Ya it hurts now to think about the times that we have gone through, the clarity in her eyes, the smile on her face, the child... no it can never be forgotten and to forget it would be a crime we commit against ourselves. You always have blamed/kidded/scolded/admired in me the fact I never get very close to people. See why! Not that I am scared of their drifting away but I am scared of the memories that haunt me through my life. And more so in times of loneliness and in times of happiness when I remember some aspect of a dear one which I could have used at that moment of my life.
We will see more of the innocence we have always carved for Raj. There is more to come, more to feel and more to lose. It's just the start of the beginning of life.
Rony.
Our She is a suspension in time. Don’t disturb those moments with the images from today. Everybody changes Raj. She is growing up and she has grown away from our eyes. We no longer know who she meets or dwells with each day of her life. We were not there when she met new people, experienced new things and bud into the lady she is.
Another year or two and she would have no time for people who so rarely show up in her life unless it brings her immense joy and happiness in her life to be with them. We came close to her because she carved to have a loving brother and we carved for that baby love. Yes she loved us a lot but now that love has been diluted with years of dust and distance.
The time for innocence is not over yet nor is the pain over lost innocence. Soon enough you will have your own child and then there will be nothing to match the innocence on her face and in that phase of your life you would have forgotten all about Her face and her kiddoish being which felt so safe and comfortable in her brother's arms.
Ya it hurts now to think about the times that we have gone through, the clarity in her eyes, the smile on her face, the child... no it can never be forgotten and to forget it would be a crime we commit against ourselves. You always have blamed/kidded/scolded/admired in me the fact I never get very close to people. See why! Not that I am scared of their drifting away but I am scared of the memories that haunt me through my life. And more so in times of loneliness and in times of happiness when I remember some aspect of a dear one which I could have used at that moment of my life.
We will see more of the innocence we have always carved for Raj. There is more to come, more to feel and more to lose. It's just the start of the beginning of life.
Rony.
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