Stabbed but ain't dead yet!

i told her, "I was dead, u put a little life into my body what else would happen but the sight of a body withering in pain and wishing that it was never brought to life at all." It is a feeling i have never before felt in my life. i was in pain, i was happy, i was shit scared, i was confused about the space i was in, i was unaware of the feeling that were flowing through me, i was unaware of myself.
i still feel her touch on my hand, her cold skin, her warm skin , her scent still lingers in my arms where i held her.
each of the tears that i shed hurt so much. tears felt so meaningless as she left me once more. i feel so meaningless!