i want to cry

In another hour it will be 36hrs since it ended. 5years of companionship and it all had to be over in a matter of minute. life seems so lifeless!
It seems like i am looking at everything through a haze. when some stands in front of me, it seems like there is a veil between us. when i speak it seems like some in front of a transparent veil is speaking. the mind seems so light.almost like the blood has drained from it and my mind incapacitated. thoughts incoherent and memories sudden and vivid are running across the glazed eye all day. the last day seemed so long. meaningless thought float through my mind and eye drifted more than once from what i was trying to work upon. still in the same state but things seem to have improved. or so i am thinking.
Just the pain remains. just the ache deep inside my chest and on the lines of heart that run across my hands... the pain to which i can associate no other name but your's.
Feel all broken and i don't know what to do or for that matter what to think about! hoping that in the coming days i will feel better. if this ordeal is true then at the other end of it you would be missing my love. there is a burning sensation right behind my eye and the eye balls feel warm. remember you had told me that i have everyone here while you have none. you were right. i have all the people in the world to share my smile with but none for my tears. now not even you.