It's been so long since i have been appreciated for being there... its not like i carve for praises to be showered upon me but then sometimes it just requires the assurance that people are aware of your existence.
Day after day it gets down to the same thing... people close to me thinking about some else though physically present near me. it hurts, believe me or not. first i thought that it was just that i was being selfish. it was ok... i even persuaded my mind and heart to believe that all was fine and it is a passing phase. it worked fine. but the day after day of sloshing of words about others on my sand castle finally got it down.flat upon the ground.now it feels good when someone calls me their own. but it scares me to know that separation is near and soon enough the perception is going to change. They ask me why i care about someone else?Why shouldn't i when he or she is taking care of me. i never asked you anything other than love from you but you had to waste it someone who was not worth it and didn't give you a damn when you needed him the most. but i was always there! but no one could see... no one.tell them and you you get a warm hug and some words of honey.but thats not enough to melt the ice that has gathered in all these days... and they might not believe it but each of there word feeds the ice and just makes it thicker, colder and stronger.
i wish i could get a new life... away from these people so that i can start it afresh. i want no one in my life right now.no one. i just wish for a new life!
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