It's cold...

Couldn’t sit at my seat any longer. Was not able to take the incessant blast of cold air down my neck. Had to search for something warm. Walked to my favorite spot in the office. The huge window which engulfed half the naked concrete city into its embrace. Yes it was warm here. Could feel the sun on my skin though the rays were bouncing off the skeleton of a huge structure coming up next to my place of work.
The view of the silent city, accompanied by the heavy and laborious breathing of the air conditioning system broken by its own thunderous roar as it cranked gears, might soon be lost as the skeleton structure, next to the building where i stood, put on skin of concrete or i might be long gone! Here it is warmer than the other places in the office and i come here when the cold creeps deep into my bones but today i feel cold, desolate and lonely!
My eyes wander the horizon aimlessly, i look from one structure to another as if one of them would raise an arm as we used to as children in a class. That bubbling enthusiasm is something that i am dying to experience again. But something else is killing me now.
The while of the air conditioning system is slowly dying out but it still breaths laboriously. It almost feels like its sleeping. As my eyes strain to see smaller structures in the distant skyline checking for telltale signs of life, my mind is conjuring sounds of approaching footsteps, laughter and screaming kids. i turn around each time the din in my head grows loud enough and sure enough the sound dies out as if i were in a vessel sailing away fast from all the fanfare at the shore.
No the warmth from the sun is not enough today to drive the chill from my skin. I feel... umm... insecure, may be for the first of many times that are to come. Now i know how those thousands had felt when their work place just shut the doors on them. No it is not that bad yet for me but my stomach churns with the thought of what it might be this time tomorrow.
Very lonely and scared but i know there is no one in this world who can console and support me now. I don’t want to seek one now. i guess it will be me and the city in slumber under the October’s lazy afternoon sun and the laborious breathing of the air conditioning system.