Did i do something wrong?

Which category do you place this question - confession, asking for someone’s well-being, plain insulting, ignorance!!
Time and again when i go into my infamous silence mode, where i am generally pissed off and whamming-banging anything that stands in front of me, people (supposedly) close to me, pose this question and expect a blunt edged answer to it. But most of the times they are met with a grave silence as a warning not to piss me off further.
This silence is something not many can fathom; it’s surprising how people who expect me to guess what their silence means fail to understand what it means to me. Guess what, it means i am screaming... it’s a blood curling scream, a wild scream, an animal’s scream, a scream in anguish, a scream of agony, a scream - my scream! My voice is taken away from me when you guys accuse me but what do i say when i want to accuse you, when i want to hurt you, when i want to go away from you!
Why am i so helpless when it comes to you guys, i am feeling strangled with the love i feel for you, helpless, angered, in pain! Am i lashing out for i feel that everything between us is going to end.