People say that as you reach the twilight of your life, you start to realize that you ran after the wrong things and wait for the wrong people. I have not even reached the zenith of my life and i already get the feeling that may be i am not doing things right. Have i invested my feelings and my time in people who do not appreciate it, people who can't do without it (or so they think)?
When i got the feeling that i was just a filler of void it hurt me. Void created from waiting in the corridor for the food to arrive, a break to stretch the neck and have no one to speak to, bored, nothing to do, in pain and no one to understand. What is it?
I get accused at times for being someone who doesn't call up, but i do. When i start doing it, people tell me - they forget so i should keep calling. When i call, i am asked to speak. Did any of you guys think that i feel like a telephone operator, a slave to your whims and wish? Don't you guys realize that sometimes even i feel like speaking and be heard? Didn't you ever get the feeling that may be i was waiting all day?
No one does.
It's truly said - "Every man is for Himself!" Only that i was too naive to understand. Even though i have comprehended the message, i guess i will remain an object for you guys for you make my life and then how long is it going to last anyway???
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