Need a break

Ha... i was thinking the heated argument over the half eaten lunch, all the discussion and the India's close call with Aussies in the Twenty20 match had gone to my head. Now i know what it was! It was the load of the hair on my head which had taken away my cool. Now that it’s gone i am feeling so much better... :D

Well the day has been pretty exciting for me with family weight being thrown around with of course my friends being there to witness the scene as i was massacred. Ok after all i am the bad guy so what is the big deal... now my surroundings are all mute and i am having a gala time with myself... YUCK!!! that’s so gay :)

Now that it’s all told i hope that the topic won’t come up in a long time. The wound this time around is quite deep and may it be that way. Sorry folks but i don’t want you meddling and telling me what to do when i do it all for your happiness. i cudnt quite believe how cold i have become when i loved my little baby and in less than half of an hour i was white hot fighting off tears (not mine) and puppy face offensives. Oh, i left my lunch in half that hurt my tummy’s sentiments alot and it retorted with big groans later. Had to feed him a monstrous snicker to quieten him up.

Right now feel like taking another of those tiny magical pills and forget everything but then i can’t... WHY? Guys reading this blog can understand if they are the ones i am speaking to rite now. It was hell lot of a fun to let go of logical thinking. Think the tab still has an effect on my character for seems like i am oblivious of the things happening around me. A tear just a week ago would have torn me to piece and put a weight enough on my back to have me crumble to my knees and beg for forgiveness. Some how that Thursday changed my life (atleast for now it is, unless some how fate decides to take away me or some one else some other place!!!) now i am relieved of the constant headache that plagued me for so long. i won’t forget you dearest headache, you have given me so much trouble in the past month that i have just hoped that my head would burst sometimes and the you would disappear with it. But no, you nagged me on. If i thought that you were gone then you would appear as a dull wind and stroke my skull and remind me of your presence. Atleast someone did not have problem staying with me :)

My friend for 10years now... i called the guy all sorts of dirty names today. That was kind of a revelation to myself. But in the coming days i really got to evaluate if i really meant all that i said! don’t know what got into me but it doesn’t come as a surprise to me as i have been calling a lot of people by various names now a days :)

Something else pissed me off. It was this that there seems to be a lot of information exchange without my knowing about it. i almost felt like a malfunctioning piece of code around which there is a kind of protocol that binds all the codes that surround it and finally make it feel like a kind of alien or say more like a VIRUS!!!

An old friend of mine came over to my place today. Poor guy thought he might put some wisdom into the echoing emptiness of my mind. What he saw here scared the wits out of him. He was so distraught and disoriented(he was not prepared for what he witnessed, not his fault!) that he was not prepared to open his mouth in the closed space of the walls and (i think!) he breathe only after he stepped out of the door :D (funny thought that!!!). it took him a over an hour to recover from the deep impact :)

Need new people in my life. Think its time for the change. Let’s see what can be done about it! I can’t fight with no army of my own. Already have a few people to back me up but that cant be enough. i need more force! Aah, i want something to calm the activity in my head. It seems so unreal and so messed up! Just praying that someone doesn’t land up dead at the end of this ordeal. The complexity of fighting your own, the desire to protect them from your own evil is quite difficult man. Had it been someone else then probably i might be feeding on his guts by this time or having his barbecued brain for dinner.

Its pitch dark around here. Can’t see anyone. This post is the worst of all the ones i wrote. i have no idea as to what i am typing. It’s maddening. My eyes are burning now. i got to play something. That is what i got to do now. then may be i can take my super computing piece of crap, currently doing rounds of the archives of the memories stored in the storage vaults, to rest.

May be shouting on some one will help. Or may be i will call up someone and talk naughty :D and have a good life. I wish i was Calvin, then me and Hobbes could go for a ride on our sledge or go have a dip in the mud in the play ground. Then have a cold bath, grab a beer and have some hot noodles… slurp… hey, i drifted off. i was speaking about myself not Calvin. He doesn’t booze, he a naughty kid. That’s all he is!

i think i just got a name to call up and guess what that is just what i am going to do now :) shit man, this is a trivia but i just discovered something. When i put a smiley “:)” it was replaced by an ugly Microsoft smiley… shucks this sucks, i aint want any smileys in my blog except those which i might draw and put them on :)… aah it got replaced again. Anyway chow! Me gotta go, my vocal cord is screaming and trying to get some attention so that i can give him some exercise and he can rest in peace. Lets see what i can do… come on vokkie… chuk chuk chuk… lets go speak to someone… come on now vokkie, its talky talky time.
Until next time folks, have a great life!