Stabbed but alive :)

Jealousy and insecurity the biggest weapons that my family finds to use against me. Being pulled away and being pulled towards at the same time just leaves me torn. Each pull tears a little more and it bleeds a little more. Silence is the way of my life but it pains none the less. Life seems pathetic and worthless but today when i saw her life seemed to be renewed. Her scent still lingers in my mind. Wish i could stay with her forever. Everytime i see her i want to make a new start so that i can slavage what life has got to give me! The resolve had just started to melt away and i was being enveloped with a cold i have know since my childhood. For sure i dont like it. It is the only thing i have to come hate! No people, no sour relations but just the cold feeling. COLD, METAL COLD.... It drives my mind into a frenzy and leaves me in no state to think. Yes but i can think now so it must mean that i am winning my fight against my own fears.